Damnit, DA, I need you to not be down so I can continue staying up irrationally late and reading cute comics about anthropomorphized countries! Why can you not understand this??

(aka, that is what I am/was doing this evening. Er, morning. Despite my obvious need for sleep and listening to my voice lesson tape so I can tape over it tomorrow. I will use my old tape, I think. I bet if I had a digital recorder, I'd never listen; just keep storing the darn things.)

Life has been good lately. Work is a bit stressful (isn't that always the case? I don't think a job exists that isn't stressful, really) because of organizational things that I can't control. I have a lot of commitments, still. I am not practicing much.

I went to see Cat Empire on Tuesday! It was an adventure, that I do not have the energy for retelling now. Getting over there involved the most edge-of-my-seat stressful hour I've had in a long time. FORGETTING TICKETS was part of it. Luckily, everything turned out in the end, and it was a fantastic concert, though next time I'm bringing earplugs. I don't care if it's dorky; we were front row, and it was so loud that I couldn't actually hear what he was saying when he talked between songs because it was all BUZZZ BUZZZSHWISHSH BUZZBUZZZ VANCOUVER!!! And when the trumpet played high notes I couldn't tell the difference between any of them.

Anyway, it looks like DA is refusing to load and fuel my misguided comic-reading silliness, so to bed.

ETA: I reallyreally want to buy Star Trek but I don't know when I'll ever get to watch all the features so I'm not in a hurry. I guess. I'm getting the BluRay version even though I don't have a BluRay player; my friend has agreed to have a watching-Star-Trek party at his place. I don't know if he realized quite how much watching that would entail when he agreed to it. Anyway. Sometime, I'll get Star Trek. And watch it. Also, I was disappointed that apparently Payless Shoes in Canada does not carry the Star Trek men's Airwalks that I wanted to maybe buy. *shrug*

So! Halloween was a success, and I survived better than I thought I would. Giving out candy at the mall was a scream, actually (terrible Halloween pun, groan). One of my coworkers made a GIANT AWESOME SOLDIER ROBOT costume in two days out of foam from work (since we are also a foam warehouse). Like, seriously, he looked like a Transformer only more soldier-y. Each boot was about a foot and a half wide, and his shoulders were higher than his head. All spray-painted camo with stencils of letters and stuff. And his fiancee came to help hand out candy - she was a nature path (since she is actually a naturopath). There were TONS of little kids, some people bringing their little tiny babies in costume and trick-or-treating for them, which was kind of weird cause the baby's not going to be eating the candy. We got told we had the best costumes of any store in the mall. :D We had 1000 pieces of candy and all of it was gone in 50 minutes.

The Olympic torch thing was pretty cool - a little (okay, a lot) heavy on the sponsorship and running about half an hour late, but cool. Seriously, they had a guy on the stage doing a painting on a rotating canvas using his hands, which was neat, but then he stencilled the RBC logo on the bottom corner before giving it to the city. And during the Coke section there were circus performers and percussionists and a ten foot tall Coke bottle sculpture thing they erected while everything was going on. The girl who carried the flame onto the stage was a Paralympian in a wheelchair, so I could only see the very top of the actual flame over the crowd when she went past. My mom's choir sang afterwards and then it was very very cold cause I hadn't dressed for the weather. The fireworks were awesome - I have never in my life seen so many fireworks going off at once as there were during the finale. They were those ones that shoot up from the ground, about five streams of them, going bambambambambambambam just continuously while the big ones all crashed together overhead.

It made me wonder who paid for them, actually. I hope it was Coke or RBC. :P

Then I was very late for a party, but it was fun nonetheless and I got home at 2am and slept until 2pm today. LOL. I really needed the sleep though; I've been very sleep-deprived and have been feeling kind of like I'm fighting a cold and I for sure don't want to get sick. Never mind that it's miserable and the whole of North America is freaking out about swine flu, but we are so seriously understaffed at work that we really can't afford to have anyone sick. What my employer was thinking opening a whole new store that will be open long hours come December and only hiring ONE more person (me) I will never know. I have a feeling that I will be in for some completely unavoidable stress come the holidays - unavoidable because I will not be the cause of the crazy shit going on, but I will have to deal with it anyway.

You know, there is enough information in this entry that you could totally identify what city I'm in and where I work if you wanted to. I'm not sure if I'm okay with that or what. It's like someone asking for costume picspam on my last entry... I guess it's not really a big deal, but it feels strange to me, somehow. I still have to upload pics from my camera anyway. I fear that none of the pictures that people took of me are quite what I wanted, which is a bit of a shame, but I didn't want to be annoying about it at the time.

Anyway, today was a very lazy day and I am posting this very lengthy entry partly because I feel so guilty about doing nothing with it. I listened to half my voice lesson and did the laundry and dusted some shelves. Because I have so little uncommitted time in my week, I really needed to be more productive than that, but... I really need to learn to either do something or not beat myself up about it. So I guess not beat myself up it is! Probably my life would be happier if I could motivate myself to get up off my butt, though.

Okay, finish the laundry and then to bed. I haven't been on ontd_startrek for a couple weeks now, just because I seriously do not have time to spend on fandom. (Yes, I spent several hours on the computer today, but that was checking all my non-ontd stuff. And looking at that ugliest tattoos blog. It's like a trainwreck, I just cannot look away...)

I need to post this very quickly because asdlfkjaf;ejfbl I need sleep. Anyway, I'm going as Rosie the Riveter (aka the We Can Do It poster) for Halloween! I just finished making my bandana and practicing my makeup tonight. I had a heck of a time finding blue coveralls, finally borrowed some from a male friend who is rather wider than I am but I'm cinching them in with a belt. I had to paint white polka dots on some red fabric because apparently my city does not contain red fabric with white polka dots already on it. I dunno. And the super-cheap fabric I used is very stiff and does not want to tie into a knot, thank you very much. Grr.

But! Sweet success! I finally (finally finally) found out what the heck the badge thing is she has on her lapel in the poster. Like literally in the middle of writing this entry I was also Googling as I had been for the last half hour and found it. It's an employee identification badge! Because the poster was made for Westinghouse Electric.

I'll be working at our mall store on Saturday and handing out candy to the kids, and then going to the Olympic torch celebration, and then to a friend's party. I still haven't figured out exactly how or when I'm getting to all these places, but I'll manage. :D

Anyway, sleep! Everybody at my work is paranoid about swine flu and 2 people are sick right now, so I need to boost my immune system (and I am very tired).

Slightly defective corn chips are delicious.

No really - the ones we get (Que Pasa organic tortilla chips) sometimes come where they've accidentally put too much oil on them (they're usually very minimally greased/salted) and they're very slightly burnt, and they are so much worse for you I'm sure and SO DELICIOUS. Heh.

Haven't updated in a long while; I've been very busy and not feeling much like blogging. I just got back from a meeting over in Vancouver - man, taking a car on the ferry is expensive. It just wasn't practical to take the bus with the location and time and everything, so there were two of us in a car and one way is $72.00. Isn't that crazy??

I've been asked to sing at my church's women's Christmas special that they do every year, so I've got to pick out a couple songs for that. And then decide whether to have the organizer lady play for me, which I'd rather not because she's rather march-like in style no matter what piece she's playing, or whether I can play it myself and sing which is less likely, or whether I want to get a backing track which I generally despise, or whether I can find somebody else who's available. Hmmm.

Work is good, very stressful since we just opened a new store and the boss is only now realizing that giving himself 12 hour shifts with no breaks is not the greatest idea. That he is kind of grumpy is to put it mildly, and there's this underlying tension because a lot of the employees didn't want to open a new store anyway, and of course our suppliers are crapping out on us, why wouldn't this be a good time for that? Ah well. Life.

Other random stuff:

-I might be going to see The Cat Empire in November, yay!

-I think I'm going to be Rosie the Riveter (actually the "We Can Do It!" poster woman) for Halloween. I wasn't going to dress up, but then I got invited to a party where costumes were mandatory, so.

-I need to preorder my Star Trek DVDs, I guess! I haven't been thinking about it much lately. I'm still going to get the Blu-Ray version as well as the regular DVD, so I can watch the fancy Blu-Ray stuff at friends' houses and the DVD at my own. XD

-Voice lessons are so excellent these days! I love them. I don't know if I'd be able to prepare to audition for universities in time for that sort of thing this year, though. Especially since I'm not positive that I want to be going to school, or for what. Sigh. Still, singing = awesome.

The Cat Empire!! I've been reasonably obsessed (oxymoron much?) with them lately. They're coming to a city an hour and a half from where I live in November, and I think a lot of my friends are planning on going, so I guess I need to get on the buying-tickets thing! It just keeps failing to register in my brain that September's gone already...

Also, this is a weird LJ-wide quote thing I've never seen before. At first I thought it was just a fancy poll, and then was very confused when suddenly I was making an entry on my own journal...

So. I got about 6 hours of sleep last night, but decided to try getting up early and going to the gym before work anyway. It was okay; I was very energetic at the time. Then I had a busy crazy day at work, mostly starting in the afternoon when we got a GIGANTIC furniture order (I'm talking an ocean of dressers here) and it all had to be unwrapped and tagged if it was for a customer and rearranged and blah. I am going to spend the next two days or so getting lacquer-induced headaches while screwing knobs onto dresser drawers. We're opening a new store tomorrow, so everything's pretty chaotic in general.

ANYWAY, I don't know if it's cause we were busy or if I didn't pack enough food or what, but by about 5:00 I was pretty much through with being able to think at all. By 6:00 when I was done I was reduced to just sitting in a chair staring at nothing and feeling vaguely like I should be doing something (ie. leaving work). I managed to go to the grocery store (and only wound up with a few weird things, like a largish bag of prunes and some Turkish Delight) and pick up some chili at Wendy's. Got home, ate the chili, and immediately passed out on the couch. I managed to move myself to my bed before I wrecked my neck again, but all this to say:

I have just woken up from a nap that started at 7:30pm, and I have a feeling there are things I'm supposed to do, but I'm very disoriented and just have no idea at the moment. I'm feeling very weird...

So my internet provider has a free anti-virus/spyware/firewall thing that comes with it, and according to my techie friends (several of whom work at said company), it's a good one. So I keep it. However, it has this incredibly frustrating habit of constantly crippling my computer. Basically, every time I take my laptop out of hibernation (which is what I do with it mostly), it runs an update, and then uses 100,000K of memory and 25%-100% of my CPU to install the update. For ten minutes. As you can probably tell by my abuse of italics, it's been making me a little frustrated lately.

My machine is 3.5 years old and only has 512MB of RAM - I could add more but it's the old kind of RAM, apparently, which is harder to get one's hands on. It's been a good little computer but it's just not meant to be constantly running a program that's this resource-intensive. The anti-virus doesn't interfere when I'm just internet browsing or whatever, so I probably shouldn't say it's constantly crippling my computer, but it's sure doing it often enough to make me mad. Use your computer within the first 5-10 minutes of turning it on? Nobody would want to do that!

I'm mostly ranting because this evening I made the mistake of un-hibernating, waiting only a minute or so, opening Firefox, and then once that was open trying to run OpenOffice. I'm used to waiting a good while for that program to open cause I don't keep the quick-start thing running, but my lovely anti-virus decided it was going to have a big fat update today, so I've just sat here for an inordinately long period of time staring at the Task Manager waiting for "FSSM32.EXE" to stop using all my resources. Argh.

What anti-virus do you use? How is it working for you?

Occasionally I wish I had like, a bajillion hours (days and days, even) to go through all of ontd_startrek and click all the links and watch all the videos and participate in all the comments and just generally be part of the GQMF-ery that abounds there. Like, I mean trolling (poor choice of word?) through the archives for all the stuff I've missed kinda thing. Because these days I don't really have much time to be following through on the cool things I see, so I mostly scan. That comm makes me so happy. (Also, I had forgotten how awesome the Ritter Sport dark chocolate bars with the hazelnuts are.)

Nother day off! Dyed my hair on Sunday, got it cut today (yaaay it no longer touches my shoulders!), had both ballet and tap classes, and bought the two cutest hats in the universe. Oh crap, and forgot to write a 100-word bio of myself that's due on the first. Maybe tomorrow night after work? I'm not doing it now. And I have to find a useable photo of myself too, sigh. Anyway! I would take photos of myself in the cute hats and post them but I lack the initiative because it would take a while to get ones I liked & upload them etc. One of the hats is a cream-coloured cloche hat with a thin black velvet ribbon and a little poof of black fur on one side. The other is stretchy and knitted with a pink-and-brown houndstooth pattern on the top part and a brown ribbed knit brim. So cute! I don't know when I'm ever going to wear them.

I really want to make a Spock animated icon right now, but it's midnight and I do have to work tomrrow. *grumpy face*

It is now 2:20am and I have to get up eeearly to go to the gym and then put in a full day of work. Why I suddenly decided that staying up this late reading ST fic and eating cookies (I'm not supposed to have wheat!) was a good idea, I don't know. Urgh. Urgh urgh urgh.

The thing about this job is that I can't really do it very well by rote, partly because sales in general takes alertness, and partly because it's new, and partly because there is so friggin' much to know that I need to be on my toes all the time. Bad move, staying up like this.

Why don't I regret it yet?

Whew! Dodged a bullet there! While innocently surfing for some "Glee" episode summaries (because I'm curious but don't actually want to watch the show), I clicked on a website that minimized my Firefox into a tiny little box behind one of those forced-click error messages saying that my computer had a virus. I was all like, I REFUSE TO CLICK ON YOUR "OK" BUTTON OF DOOM, EVIL VILE SPYWARE!! and used the task manager to end Firefox. But then! When I opened it again, it had helpfully saved my tabs for me, which resulted in the exact same problem. Luckily, I was at enough of a loss to try the same thing again, because this time Firefox had a problem saving/opening my tabs (it said it was embarrassed. I didn't mind) and I was FREE!!! If that hadn't worked, I would have had no idea what to try.

Another jam-packed day today. Not used to being this busy! I had my first ballet class last night; it was fun and exciting. They're probably going to divide up into a more beginner class & a more advanced class, because there's enough people, and the experience among them ranges from less than a year to someone who actually teaches dance. I'll be in the more beginner one. I had missed ballet!! I was expecting to not be able to walk today; I could walk fine, but my muscles were a little protest-y and tired at the gym after work. Not bad, though, all things considered!

Man, it feels nice to sit down.

Busy busy day! Again!! My days off are turning into my mom's version of a day off... simply a day to madly do all the things that I don't have time to do on the days I'm working. :P

Picked up my new glasses (finally!) and they're great! I can see much much clearer! However, I'm starting to doubt the plastic frames thing... they start to hurt the back of my ears after about 3 hours, and I don't know if they can be any looser without the frames starting to fall down my nose. :(

Also had my brand-new very comfortable mattress taken back today.. because it smells. And it won't stop smelling. Like a strong, bitter, chemical-y smell, something like dandelion sap but worse. I got it on Thursday and had been airing it out as much as I could every day since then and there was no difference in the smell... I had to go sleep in my mom's bed at 6am this morning because I couldn't stand it anymore. It makes my nose run and me feel generally sick and awful. So they're loaning me a 6-inch foam mattress with a basic cotton cover til the new one they've ordered comes in on Thursday. Unfortunately a 6" core with nothing on top is pretty firm, so I've put an old 2" featherbed-thing on top to give it a little padding and to block the smell of this one. Because it smells nearly the same! Not as strong, though, and it is brand new so maybe the smell will dissipate right away like it's supposed to. Blech. If it turns out all foam mattresses are this smelly (and I don't think they are because the people at work seemed surprised when I mentioned it and I've never heard any customer complaints in 3 weeks) I might have to get a latex one. Which would be supremely comfortable, but expensive, even at cost plus 10%.

Also had tap class and went to the gym and did the laundry and went out for supper with my friend and read my book for work and practiced singing. And now it's time for bed!

Oh, and I'm now officially part of the organizing committee for the BC Chamber Choir. I have no idea yet what that entails! Other than reading a bunch of emails and minutes of meetings that I've been putting off for several days.

PS - I wish I still had time to lurk around on ontd_startrek for hours and read all the posts. Alas, such times are gone from me.

So today is my day off, and I really need to practice singing but find myself strangely reluctant. I have always been reluctant to practice in the past, but then I have never had such a positive experience in the past as these last two voice lessons have been. I'm pretty sure the main problem is that a) I don't know the best way to listen to the recording of the lesson - what to write down, whether to listen and then sing and then listen etc, and b) I really don't want to hear myself sing. I've always had some issues with my voice and feeling bad about the way it sounds or whether I'm producing it correctly or what. And my new teacher has said several times that right now (especially in warmups) it doesn't matter what I sound like, we're just trying to get the right placement. And I totally love singing when I'm there. So I think I need to just chill out and listen to the damn thing already. I need to think of it as a tool that is for use in real life, not THE BE ALL AND END ALL OF VOCAL THINGS. Okay. It's a tool. I'll just keep repeating that to myself...

Whooo, busy day today! And this was my day off. Had tap class, did a whole bunch of errands, went to the gym, mowed the lawn, made supper, did the laundry, played the piano, sang, made my lunch for tomorrow, and cleaned up the kitchen. My legs are tired.

I think I will treasure forever the mental image someone on ontd_startrek gave me: she had a dream that Simon Pegg was teaching her to tap dance, in a kilt, on the bridge of the Enterprise. Tap classes will never be the same. :D

That's about all I have to say. I get my new mattress on Thursday!! So excited. I may actually not need to get my mom to give me an adjustment every second day or so (my mom is a chiropractor). My bed's been bad for a long time, but I only really started noticing how much it was wrecking me recently. And my new glasses should be in sometime this week or the beginning of next! With the right prescription this time, and hopefully I can get them adjusted so they don't hurt my ears. Yaay!

Bed. Sleep time. Wharrgarbl.

So, I've just gotten a job as a salesperson. I've never done sales before. I'm working for a great company, wonderful atmosphere, treat their employees like family, the product is fantastic, they've been in business 20 years and are really into integrity, which is great. I don't work on commission. The main focus is to get the customer something that solves their problem and that they'll be happy with. Sounds pretty ideal, doesn't it?

As for how I'm liking the job so far, it's great. It's a lot to learn, as I've said before, but I'm not exactly a slouch in that department. I should be able to handle it fine. It's funny, because I'm so conditioned to work being something awful that every day I dread going, and yet every day I leave the store in a positive frame of mind. Often I'm singing. It's a nice place to work.

What I'm kind of wondering about is the job of sales in itself. One of the requirements for working there is reading a book by Zig Ziglar called Secrets of Closing the Sale. It sounds pretty cheesy, but actually it's a very good book about selling with integrity and honesty, and what about selling will make you and the customer walk away happy. I may go and read some of his other books after I'm done this one, since he's a pretty inspiring guy (not that I'm not already having trouble finding time where I want to read this). So lots of stuff in this book is making me think. And several of the chapters are about attitude towards yourself, others, and the profession of selling.

I've realized that I don't have a positive attitude about selling at all. Part of it is the cultural conditioning we all get not to ask for things - it's not polite, you're supposed to wait until you're offered something, not ask for it. When you sell something you ask for the person to buy it. I'm especially sensitive to that sort of thing, probably overly so. When I was in acting school they had a hard time getting me to take my space when I was on stage. I wind up feeling like I don't have the right to ask somebody to give up their money for something. So that's something I'm fairly uncomfortable with. But I think I can learn to get over it.

What I'm really concerned with is whether I think selling is ethical. Now, if I'm selling a good product that helps people with their problems, what's wrong with that? And I sincerely believe that what we sell at this place is a good product. Everybody there is passionate about it and about making sure that the customer gets the highest quality possible. Especially where mattresses are concerned, we believe (and the owner knows from 20 years' experience) that what we sell can give people a better sleep for a longer time with waaay less problems (and over the lifespan less cost) than anything anyone else in the city is selling. So that's great. Where my problem lies is with the niggling doubts I have on consumerism and free enterprise in general. I feel like when I buy things and when I sell them, I'm contributing to the gap between the minute percent of us that have most of the worlds' money and everybody else who has hardly any money at all. Now, that doesn't mean I particularly want to give up my middle-class Canadian lifestyle. I don't really want to go be Mother Teresa and live on nothing in the slums trying to help others. But something inside of me feels like I should. And that being a salesperson - being, in effect, the grease that makes the wheels of this economy go 'round (cause without people selling they really really wouldn't) - means I'm just making this world worse. I'm contributing to the culture and system that has produced Wal-Mart and all it symbolizes. Something inside of me feels like being a consumer and one who promotes consumerism is wrong. And yet, really, what have I done about it? I buy stuff from Wal-Mart. If I face it, that's probably worse ethically than selling someone a product that's made in BC by good companies.

So I think my problem is that deep down I feel that sales is a selfish profession. Sure, I'm helping my customers, which is super important. I'm technically helping (as I was just reading in this book) everyone in the economy whenever I buy or sell something, and I wouldn't be buying anything if there were not other people selling things that I buy. So salesmanship is good for the economy and it's good for the customer directly, if what is being sold is done so honestly. But is it good for the world? I don't know. Yes, Zig Ziglar, sales has probably made America what it is today: I believe you on that one. But I don't necessarily like what America is today. Not least because I'm not American.

I don't have any answers to this, but I wanted to write it down so I was clear on what I was thinking, and also maybe share it with some of you guys. Kudos if you managed to read this far, :D and I'd love to hear what you think!

Feeling quite overwhelmed these days. I'm getting way more emails (including LJ comment notifications) than I can keep up with, for some reason, so a lot of stuff is going unreplied for a while. I think it's mostly that when I get home from work I don't want to think anymore. But also, yeah, more emails.

Had my first voice lesson today! I'm very excited/happy. I need to either bring a notebook or a recorder, though, because otherwise I'm not going to remember much of what she says or what we do. Also, I have yet to discuss practicing with her - I don't think she's super-strict, but I do think she expects me to be singing during the week (which is reasonable). I'm thinking it'll definitely have to be on my days off, cause I'm pretty busy! ( My schedule, for those who might be interested: )

I watched Glee tonight, at least most of the episode. I take it this wasn't the pilot? Anyway, ( Thoughts on Glee )

Hey there, just popping in to say that work has been very busy times, and life is pretty good in general. I may or may not be PMS-ing (never have figured out if I do or not because my body is weird and does not keep to a schedule), since I started bawling today after not being able to find the right kind of soap at Costco. In the car, not in Costco. Bawling, that is. Also, things on ontd_startrek were making me wibble a lot, in an "Oh, everyone (in Star Trek) is so beautiful and awesome and I love them all and I had forgotten how awesome they were, aren't they beautiful *sob*" kind of way. That may have also been caused by the ~80g of dark chocolate I had just eaten.

Anyway, I have to work tomorrow and it's 1:30 am, because I am a dimwit who does not learn from her mistakes. I am in desperate need of a new mattress; fortunately I now work in a MATTRESS STORE, so I should be able to get on that soon. I mean I probably should have already but I've been feeling a bit overwhelmed. I think I'll go in on Sunday when I'm not working and that way I can lie down on all the beds without feeling guilty.

There are so many lovely things online but I need to STOP LOOKING AT THEM AND GO TO BED.

Do you ever write emails to people you don't really know (ie companies or some such) and then get embarrassed when they reply? This happens to me. I wrote to a gluten-free baking mix company a few months ago complaining about the salt content, and then when they actually replied it was hard to make myself read the email. Most recently I wrote a glowing email to a local theatre praising their production of Oklahoma! (a show which I don't even normally like) and now I've got two replies from two different people and I don't want to read them because they make me embarrassed. How weird is that?

New job is going okay. Very overwhelming. I sure hope my body gets used to this more, because starting mid-September I'll have choir, tap, ballet, and voice lessons to deal with in addition. Most jobs I've had didn't start me out BAM! 40 hours a week, but that's what I've got! I suppose I can't complain. Tomorrow is my "hump" day and also apparently crazy day around the store - 3 shipments of foam & furniture come in and people come pick up their stuff and it's a madhouse.

How am I ever going to get to the gym? It's actually less than a block away from my new work but the last thing I feel like doing before or after my shift is working out. Blargh. We'll see.

afdjklafdakf So. Exhaustedly. Tired.

First day at my new job! I think it'll be all right but I am so tired right now, I don't know how I'm going to get up the energy to do four more days. Totally not used to being on my feet for 7 1/2 hours. Also, it seems that nobody there is particularly a neat freak so I dusted all the furniture on the downstairs floor and cleaned all the mirrors. Nobody asked me to, I just thought it needed doing. I get the impression it's supposed to get done more often but they're all super busy right now or something. (Ugh I hope some of the other messiness is also not normal or I will wind up being the person who cleans/organizes everything.) Anyway. Looking forward to getting more proper training tomorrow, as I was with a couple of the non-manager/owner employees today and neither of them seemed particularly trainingly inclined. Like, they would gladly tell me stuff if I asked but I had no idea what kind of questions to ask and they didn't really seem to be into taking charge. Heh.

Soooo tiiiiireeddd.... Need new shoes. The ones I have are ancient and terrible for my back and have all the traction on linoleum of a greased banana peel. I'm pretty sure I'm not supposed to wear sneakers. I guess I will buy new shoes when I buy new pants and take my glasses in, which will be... sometime. Um. Maybe Thursday after work cause the malls are open late? Ugh, shopping is the last thing I'd want to do after work. We'll see, I may have to wait til Sunday, but I really don't want to wear the same pants for five days.

Sleep time now.

Okay, gotta make this quick, as it's late. I have a new job! I'm starting tomorrow! At a local furniture place that seems very nice and friendly and family-owned. I'm doing sales, but they're very against pressure-selling or commission so I think I'll do okay. I hope. I don't really know, never having done sales before. But they know that. I just hope that I won't be ridiculously fail in some way, argh. I'm always like this before a new job. At least it's not waitressing!! That makes me very happy.

There are many fandom things going on and stuff I want to read/check out but I start at 9:30 tomorrow morning and I have to take the bus which means leaving an hour early. Which means getting up earlier than that. Which means going to bed now. ARGH! I am feeling frenetic about all the things that I feel like I need to do! (I have to buy pants, as having lost weight over the last few months I only have one pair that fits and is appropriate to wear to work. I need to take my glasses in to get new lenses because my prescription was almost expired when I bought them at the beginning of August. SRSLY, NOT COOL. I need soap and and and I don't know I'm just really nervous about this job.)

Oh powers of positive thinking, please don't desert me now!! *hopes fervently*

Cat Empire (particularly brand-new Cat Empire that I have never heard before) plus dark chocolate with hazelnuts has an almost limitless capacity to make me happy. Oh man. ♥♥♥